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As a self proclaimed perfectionist, I am finding the end to this unbeatable road. Lately, I find myself just wanting to get things done. Whether or not it all is impeccable, on time or flawless pales in comparison to the importance of me being available and 100% present for my little one.
I'm not going to lie, I let out my frustrations on the road. Yes, I have what some would call "road rage". No, I don't curse at people or show them my un-manicured fingernails, instead I wave my hands and ask the ill-mannered drivers rhetorical questions and/or honk my horn if I'm feeling New York-ish. It's nothing I'm proud of.
The other day I was on my way to run errands, nothing was going my way so far and I was pressed for time. I had appointments I needed to get to but before I could even think about all the other things that needed to get done, I needed to figure out where I'd left my keys. On top of that my baby was fussy and tired and teething and feeding off my anxiety. I wanted to scream then cry but then I found my keys in my pocket and dove straight into histeria.
"Surely there is a lesson in all of this" I thought to myself as I finally raced to my appointment. I knew this because I've felt God's gentle hands leading me to a more peaceful/patient place. As I am thinking on this I get cut off, by someone a bigger mess than myself, and BAM! This song plays on the radio (100.9 AIR1) by Francesca Battistelli. The song "This Is the Stuff" talks about patience and the lack thereof and how through all of the stuff that may drive me crazy. though seemingly small, God can and is using them to help me conquer my impatience.
Days like these are a true blessing to me (hindsight.) I can get really frustrated and even angry that things aren't going my way. On these days, I have come to realize, I feel especially lonely and as though no one would really care about my little pet peeves and how they can effect me and then God reminds me that He cares and that He is with me. Even when I'm running to the store to buy bananas.
Days like these are a true blessing to me (hindsight.) I can get really frustrated and even angry that things aren't going my way. On these days, I have come to realize, I feel especially lonely and as though no one would really care about my little pet peeves and how they can effect me and then God reminds me that He cares and that He is with me. Even when I'm running to the store to buy bananas.
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